写过很多次的一篇

这里荒废了好久。

其实不然。这之前我写了好几篇，只是没有发表出来。

今天我又来写一个已经写了很多次的主题。写了又写？没成功过还要写？原因大概是这男生又再对自己的生活方式不满了吧。

究竟我为了什么而不满自己呢？
1. 在改掉坏习惯这方面总是特别没有恒心。
2. 善于计划，执行却一团糟。
3. 超懒惰，工作总是有得拖就拖，有得闪就闪。
4. 很喜欢赖床，净把美好的早晨用来在床上思考一些没意义的东西。
5. 很厉害给人劝告，给人意见，教人的东西自己却做不到。
6. 在某种层面上我很虚伪。
7. 爱讲话，特别是没有意义的谈话。
8. 有时候会说谎。
9. 很笨，能力不好，又不要尝试改善。

因为这样，我心里不平衡了很久。也因为这样，我又想开始尝试好好生活，答应自己养成几个好习惯，并慢慢远离坏习惯。可是，这样做是有风险的。如果我做不到，我就更加讨厌我自己了。不过，为了生活，我就试试吧，总得对自己有信心啊。

重点来咯。以下就是我答应自己要办到的事。
1. 晚上12点睡，早上七点起床。12点睡就是说11.30pm就要开始煮水、洗澡、收拾了。
2. 不要赖床。赖床的结果如何你很清楚哦李伟杰。闹钟响了，关了就直接去厕所。
3. 梳洗完毕当然是享用早餐啦。现在想到Bakti的早餐就有些腻。美禄配饼干是不错的选择。
4. 专心上课。Prof Abu的课要听。Tutorial要听。
5. 午餐尽可能吃得健康些。
6. 不要一直上网，面子书多看无益。睡醒后，午餐时，下课后，睡觉前才上社交媒体。
7. 不要一直听歌，浪费时间，喜欢听的话就听一些名人的演讲。
8. 晚餐后散步一两圈。
9. 每天计划好第二天要做的事，好好地去做。
10. 睡前整理书桌。
11. 衣服干了就收起来，挂在那里是要给谁看。
12. 少说话，多做事。
13. 不熬夜做作业，功课要提早做。
14. 加油读书读书读书。
15. 晚餐吃水果，夜宵不要吃。

暂时就想到这些。明天一定要起得来，否则就注定失败了。加油吧伟杰！

Am I worthy?

Am I worthy?
You are not to answer this question.
I know I am worthy.

十句话

1. 我们既许身教育，便得为教育而教育，把它当作职业的同时，也把它当作是终身的事业，鞠躬尽瘁，春风化雨的恩泽，将永留人间。——沈慕羽

2. 一年之计，莫如树谷；十年之计，莫如树木；终身之计，莫如树人。——管仲

3. 无贵无贱，无长无少，道之所存，师之所存也。——韩愈

4. 身教重于言传。——王夫之

5. 动人以言者，其感不深；动人以行者，其应必速。——李贽

20天里的第六篇，献给每一个乐于献身杏坛的你。

How do I define myself?

How do I define myself? How do I characterize myself?

How we see ourselves is more important than how other people see us. However, my self-knowledge is rather judgmental. Sometimes, I would also compare myself to the others. And this results in discontent and low inferiority complex. I know it is not fair to myself but I just can't help to judge myself in such a negative way. 

To get a clear and fair definition of myself, I have to observe my own patterns of thoughts. Another way is to define myself by the values that I hold at core. I couldn't be wrong if I define myself by my core values, could I? I don't like defining myself by temporal identity like a student, a member of some organisations, etc. Instead, I want to define myself by my aspiration, the goals and aims that I want to achieve in my life. Therefore, I would define Lee Wai Keat as an educator. Yes, an educator. 

Education is my lifelong career. I always believe that education is the root of civilisation, the root of everything. Having seen the unreasonably low mentality of the society, which people often describe it as the "reality", I think that I ought to do something, something constructive, for our society. Even if I cannot change the mentality of the society, I believe through my effort there will be more people taking my place and role in educating our future generations.

After all, I still have to work harder to really know who I am. To me self-defining is also the process of soul searching. I think about what have I done in the past, I think about what my values are, I think about how I look at myself. We all have to be positive when defining ourselves but we also have to acknowledge the negative events that happened in our lives. They do not form our identities but truly they have offered precious experience and knowledge to us. 

20天里的第五篇，献给每一个正在寻找自己的你。

What makes waiKeat happy?

Our priorities and perspectives on life change as we grow older. What concerns us now may not be important anymore in future. 
This is why I am keeping a blog, to allow the future waiKeat to evaluate how matured he has become and to see whether he has achieved what he wanted to do.

I have to admit that I am the kiasu kind of person. Getting good results can definitely make me happy. Having a lot of close friends also contribute to my happiness. However, this doesn't mean that I define my happiness in terms of academic achievement and the number of friends I have. There are lots of things in which I would be rejoicing. But, nothing can compare to being able to live up to the values within myself. 

What are my values? Why am I having values as my top priority?
When we are to leave the world, it is with the values that we leave, not with our material wealth, our achievement, our fame. I want to leave the world with contentment, without regrets. Therefore I have to make sure that my conscience is clear all the time. And thus it is important to have a set of values within me.

Again, what are my values?
I have a lot of values that I am practising/ wish to practise in my life. Here I am going to briefly describe 4 of them: SHED.

S- Sincerity.
I want to do everything sincerely. To me, if anything is done without sincerity, it is meaningless. Yea it is true that I may not be sincere at certain times, but I am trying hard to be. We have to help people sincerely, as in not asking or hoping for anything in return. We have to learn sincerely, as in learning to acquire knowledge, not merely to pass the exams. We have to do everything sincerely by putting our heart into whatever we do.

H- Honesty.
I try to be as honest as I can. Sadly, sometimes my honesty is defined as naivety (with a negative connotation, I suppose so). But who cares? This is MY value. Err... I have to admit too sometimes I am just too honest that my honesty causes problems for me. Haiz. I think I have to learn to be honest at the right time. Maybe I am too eager to change (yea I told lots of lies in the past). Hmm.. What I want to express is, we all should be honest, at least to ourselves.

E- Empathy.
Empathy is the experiencing of others' feelings, thoughts or attitudes. It is my belief that empathy is important as we are not living alone in the world. At the same time, we do want people to understand us too. Hence, we have to learn to put ourselves in others' shoes. Everyday, we meet people from all walks of life who have different background, religions, values and cultures. It doesn't mean that we can't be friend if we are having different values. We must not be self-centered and should be able to think from the others' perspectives. Only then, we can comprehend their thinking and widen our outlooks of life.

D- Determination.
Frankly speaking, I am not a determined person. I am very good at planning. But when it comes to executing a plan, I am nothing. My problem is not having enough determination, or I should say, motivation to keep myself moving. Many great and brilliant plans of mine had failed because I am not determined. Again, like what I did in the past THREE SEMESTERS, I have planned my semester break activities. This time my focus will be on learning and reading: learning English grammar and reading Mandarin literature. Oh, how can I forget to mention jogging! Haha, I must join my sister in jogging. hehehe.

Well, these are my SHED. What are yours?

20天里的第四篇，献给每一个想要活出自我价值的你。

家

Words are powerful. 
Look at these two words: house and home.
They differ in their connotations.
A house is the physical building that people live in.
A home is more about the emotional relationships between people who live together.

A house is made of walls and beams but a home is built with love and dreams.

A home is where you feel warm, where your loved ones shower you with unconditional love, where loneliness is just a word.

You might be lost in the city at times. You might think that everything on the street is just so dull. But at home, you know it is where your heart stays, where you are accepted wholeheartedly, where you feel appreciated, where all your predicaments are being understood, where you belong to.

With money, you can have houses everywhere. But without love, you can't have a home.

Home is a place to feel safe. Home is a place to entrust your feelings to. Home is a place to be the real you.

Home is the place I miss so deeply now.

20天里的第三篇，献给每一个正在想家的你。

绿

早晨
那一片绿里
一朵朵红色的、娇艳的玫瑰
把自己最美艳动人的一面
献给了初升的太阳

夜晚
那一片绿里
高贵的玫瑰仍然展现着静态而自信的柔美
仿佛正嘲笑着
低头不语的那一片绿

风雨中
那一片绿里
多刺的枝桠向狂风折腰
艳丽的花瓣任雨滴蹂躏
而那一片绿
早已瘫在土地上  奄奄一息

太阳冉冉升起
那一片绿里
只见小草昂首挺胸
傲视散落一地的败花残枝

20天里的第二篇，献给每一个不起眼却不平凡的你。